When I started this blog years ago, I had hoped to eventually print out the archives for my children. I still haven't done it, but hear that blogger does a great job. My friend Laura has printed off a year at a time, and said blogger sent her a bound book of her posts, and pictures. I have teased saying that I have to keep up on this because it's the one baby book I have been consistent at for my children. Needless to say, I have been slacking in the blogging world. I have several friends and family members who don't live near us that check this, and enjoy seeing the kids, and my family from a distance which is usually on here.
~I often say our life is like a 3 ring circus, and from the middle of the summer til now, it has continued to be. My children have July, August, & September birthdays, not to mention Liv & Leo's are exactly one week apart, so not much wiggle room with the birthday planning for those two. Summer was busy with birthdays, and on top of that why don't we just throw an unexpected surgery into the mix. I found out I had to have a major surgery in August, a week after Liv's birthday. So it was Leo's 1st birthday, a HUGE day for us to celebrate, then Liv's, my surgery, then Nolan's~whoa, it was crazy! 2 1/2 months later=Things are still crazy and I don't feel like I ever really caught up!
~My health is obviously very important to me and there was no way that I was going to avoid or get around around the surgery. It wasn't elective, I HAD to have it. I was terrified of having it for many reasons. Really this was one of the scariest things I have ever faced. Definitely gone through things with my children that have concerned me, but as for me personally, this was it, my big fear, surgery! My OBGYN had been monitoring a rather large cyst in one of my ovaries for quite some time. Was having major pain in my ovary this summer so I had an ultrasound and let's just say at that point it needed to be removed before it, well, burst, which is NO GOOD! The short of the very L-O-N-G is that I had the surgery. There were many things I had to prepare myself for that would become a life change. Now, those of you who know me, know that medical things are a major trigger to anxiety in my life. I am very afraid of procedures, needles, medications, hospitals, the smell of hospitals(other than a newborn baby,) the site of blood, you name it! My biggest fear was going under Anesthesia, being intubated, and wondering if I'd leave my husband and children on this earth without a mama, or wife. I know that sounds a little extreme but it is truly how I felt. Anesthesia is a crazy, yet an amazing thing! My Doctor paired me with 2 amazing anesthesiologists who were so compassionate, and told me they came up with a concoction they had hoped would help with my vertigo and nausea after the surgery(another concern of mine.) Very fortunate to live in a city with a top notch hospital, and staff who took excellent care of me before, during, and after my surgery! I have one of the best, well maybe the best :") OBGYN/surgeons on the planet. He was able to save the ovary that was home to the cyst, which I was prepared to lose. One of the first things he told Shane when he met with him after the surgery was that the cyst was a lot bigger then he thought, it was the size of a large orange, YiKes! *Before I forget, I am so thankful that the cyst came back benign. I had to have some other things done too, and I knew my recovery would take awhile. I have to say a few days after the surgery I truly did not feel like I was operated on, that actually astounded me. It was my energy that was gone...truly didn't exist for quite some time, and I felt super out of it for the first few days, in a fog. I was very wiped out for a good month and a half, and still get exhausted easily. I now understand how important it is to let your body really heal, it takes a long time to heal from the inside out. Thank God for my husband. I couldn't have done it without Shane and my recovery never would have gone is well without him being able to take a week off work. He held down the fort, and managed the house, all 3 kids solo, he's a rockstar Daddy!!! He is great at it, so I am not surprised! He looked like Vince Vaughn in Old School walking around everywhere with Leo in the Bjorn, running to the grocery store with the kids, doing it all while I was out of commission. I love him! We have great friends who were major blessings too, as well as our family, helping with all kinds of things, especially meals, so grateful!
~Things are much better now, it seems like The 2nd week of August was ages ago, but it really wasn't. Still tired, but let's be real :") my almost 15 month old sweet baby boy has YET to sleep through the night, in fact, he still likes to wake up oh 1, 2, 3...maybe even 5 times a night still. Lord have MERCY! I have created this though, so I am to blame. He still nurses, and wants his mama 24/7! Maybe if I could get back to a workout routine it would help too, well I know it would, but that's not going to happen right now. I am way too tired to set my alarm for 5 AM to workout, and when we are all finally home together in the afternoon, it's family time, sports, homework, dinner, baths, ay yi yi! So I hope that in the near future a workout regiment is on my calendar weekly. Wow, this was a long post, I did however want to share the latest reality of my life. Also had to post these cards because they have been among my favorites, making me laugh, true motherhood moments!
