My Buddy & Me

Nolan & I had a date! We had so much fun, the highlight was Seussical the Musical, and Red Robin for lunch. I love my little man, and I know I've mentioned this over and over...but I am so grateful for the solo time I get with him each day. We had the best company along side of us. Olivia's Kindergarten teacher(from last year) has become a dear friend, mentor, encourager, a wonderful addition and vessel to our lives. She had a few extra tickets and asked if we could join her along with her Kindergarten class. We went to lunch afterwords, just the 3 of us, and it was so nice to catch up with her. Not to mention I was thrilled to have that time with Nolan. He LOVED the musical, it was his first time watching a performance like that in a theater setting other than his sister during ballet. The children in Seussical were incredibly talented, it's amazing. My friend D and I took the older kids the following weekend, and it was kind of a zoo, but I guess fitting when it comes to Seuss =)

Waking up to surprises

We woke up 2 times in the middle of the night/early morning to no power. So weird, we lost power 3 times yesterday. Anyhow, Nolan came running to my bedside at 6:30 AM(which is late for him to rise, he's been waking up between 5:30-6 AM, yuck)to tell me there was snow on the ground. The kids were so excited and literally ran outside in their pj's. We want it to snow MORE. I LOVE the snow, I pray we get a ton this year!!! And I welcome old man winter...please come soon, this is one of my favorite seasons.

This & That

Okay ya I know it might be a wee bit early to start thinking ChRiStMaS, snow, holiday baking, and ChRiStMaS music =) BUT, I was tired of looking at brown and orange on my blog. Not to mention, the kids and I started listening to ChRiStMaS music on Friday and it got us so excited and ChRiStMaS was ringing in my head!

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This is SO GOOD!

Between Beth Moore last weekend, and an online Bible study that I am currently involved in I feel like I am getting a major,much needed and overdue SPIRITUAL BOOST! I needed it and know there have been a lot of people praying for me to get back on track in this area of my life =) I had to share this devotion with you because most of you reading this are "mamas" and are dear to my heart! It was sent to me by my bible study leader.

This devotion comes from Proverbs 31 ministry. It's Called The Real Meaning of Perfection, written by Tracie Miles.

"So you are also complete through your union with Christ, who is the head over every rule and authority." Colossians 2:10 (NLT)

I recently earned the unofficial title of mom-of-the-year. How? I made muffins. Not just plain ol' muffins, mind you. Chocolate chip and blueberry muffins in the cute, baby-muffin pan.

I had risen early, pre-heated the oven, and wiped the sweat from my brow, as I quietly set about my muffin-making task, just like a good Proverbs 31 woman would do. As the muffins began to appear plump and golden, the savory aroma permeated the house.

Then it happened.

My children came bolting down the stairs as if the house were on fire. One of them jumped up and down and screeched in delight, while the other one yelled, "Yeah, muffins!" They paced the kitchen until the coveted pastries were done; then gobbled them up. Everyone was happy. I was thanked, appreciated and hugged. Even though they acted as if I had never fed them breakfast before, it was still awesome. I coveted my new mom-of-the-year entitlement.

Shortly after, it was time to leave for school. I hurried everyone along, with instructions for teeth brushing, book bag gathering, and snack grabbing activities.

Then it happened.

My son exclaimed that his coat was missing, even though it had been in his hand ten minutes earlier. Apparently the coat fairy had snatched it and hid his coat in her invisible closet.

In the process of his frantic coat search, my son accidentally stepped on my daughter's toe. Not just any ol' toe, but the toe that had incurred a serious stumping injury the day before. Instant drama, tears, accusations of doing it on purpose, and flying Band-aids filled the air.

In the midst of the excitement, my other daughter discovered that the coat fairy had taken her coat too - and possibly her shoes. She was having trouble locating her things due to the onslaught of incoming text messages that kept distracting her search efforts. Thus, threats were made about losing phone privileges if it continued to interfere with life itself.

Now that my son was going to be tardy for school - again - because my daughters were not ready, again (primarily due to excessive hair-straightening obligations as opposed to muffin eating) - a heated discussion took place before we finally made it out the door.

My wonderful mom-of-the-year-Proverbs-31-woman award fell to the floor and shattered in a million tiny shreds of disappointment. Calmness, patience, mercy and joy flew out the window quicker than those Band-aids had flown around the kitchen.

Our happy, peaceful, muffin-eating, hug-giving, laugh-sharing moments seemed fuzzy memories. As we drove to school, the chaos slowly slipped away. Emotions calmed. Tears dried.

Positive, loving discussions occurred and I gradually began to feel like maybe I wasn't that bad of a mother after all.

Driving home, I realized that I was holding myself up to unrealistic standards - my own standards for perfection and performance, not God's.

You see, my heart longed to be like that seemingly perfect Proverbs 31 mom. The kind of mom who is always patient, helpful, calm, understanding and reasonable in every circumstance. The kind of mom who never loses her temper. The kind of mom whose children arise every morning and call her blessed, with or without muffins.

It's easy to get hung up on the woman described in Proverbs 31. We begin to believe that God holds us to an unrealistic standard of goodness and perfection. But God sees perfection differently than we do.

Webster's defines the word 'perfect' as "being complete; lacking in nothing." God knows we cannot be perfect physically, but He does desire that we become complete spiritually. Our spirit can be perfect through the blood of Christ, even when our flesh fails.

Our efforts to model the Proverbs 31 woman should be focused on the love that was behind her actions, not the actions themselves. This woman is simply one whose outward actions were a result of a heart being transformed into Christ-likeness. She was exemplary because God's intervention had influenced her life, not because her human efforts were perfect.

So I've decided that my love for my children, not what I cook them for breakfast, will be what determines my attitude and identity today. How about you?

Dear Lord, draw me close to You. Transform my heart, and motivate me to desire completion in You, as opposed to my own standards of perfection. In Jesus' Name, Amen.

Boo!

We don't really get in to Halloween that much around here, especially this year. The kids enjoy dressing up & walking around to a few doors to trick or treat. This year I felt like we had a mock Halloween since it was on a Sunday(maybe that's why it felt different?)I can't remember the last time it was on a Sunday. For the last 5 Halloweens we've had the same family over for dinner, and to trick or treat around our cul-de-sac. Boy has the group grown, what started out with 2 blonde little girls is now a group of 6 little darlings. Here are a few pictures, this year I didn't get hardly any pictures...sighhh...I felt bad about it actually, but I did manage a few. Nolan was Buzz Lightyear(although the hood on his costume had major malfunction ;) and Liv was Jesse. The Rufflings were dressed as characters from Pooh & Hundred Acre Wood. Haha, and I almost forgot, Gam & Papa Walker stopped by and Gam always dresses up in some random wacky costume...gotta love it. I also put a few of the kids carving pumpkins. Oh little Miss O is so much like her mama with textures and smells. We had a good laugh when she was trying to clean out the inside of her pumpkin.

Crazy Heart

My friend Siri invited me over for a movie night while her husband was out of town a few weeks ago. It's funny because she's also my neighbor so I could head over in my sweats & slippers =) So we planned to watch New Moon(for the 25th time I'm sure,) but the bluray wasn't working. So we went down the list of on demand movies and saw Crazy Heart listed. I remembered that Jeff Bridges won most of the academy awards for that movie this year and have heard great things about it. So Crazy Heart it was! We were glued to the TV & even had tears at times. It was so GOOD! As we watched and listened to all the great music we both mentioned that we couldn't wait to add this music to our itunes. Thanks for the movie night Siri. Crazy Heart is on my top movie list for many reasons(but I do have to say that being a music junkie made me appreciate the movie even more.) If you haven't seen Crazy Heart yet, I'd highly recommend it.

STM Fund Run

St. Thomas More had their annual fund run a few weeks ago. It was a FUN filled day, and a great way for the school to raise money. It's also one of the only fund raiser's the kids are directly invloved with. The kids all did great considering the 85+ degree weather! All the activities were outside(the fund run, carnival, etc...) The kids had to run laps for 10 minutes around the track. I'm pretty sure Liv ran between 30-40 laps, haven't gotten the final count yet =) The 1st grader's rocked, and worked hard! I was melting from 11 a.m.~3 p.m. I'm getting old, I don't enjoy the heat unless there is a swimming pool, lake, or other form of water to keep me cooled down!
Thanks again to all our friends & family who sponsored Olivia~we GREATLY appreciate it!